Excruciating Pain: My Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, like lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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